A Visit from Former Neighbors, 2014

The hospital released mom five days prior to this day in 2014, and mom was still recovering from her bouts of cellulitis and fevers from infections when we heard a knock at the door. I answered, and three strange (to me) elderly women and men stood there asking if mom was home. As soon as my mother heard their voices, she was up and shuffling into the foyer to greet the women and their husbands, who turned out to be former friends and neighbors of hers from South Carolina. My parents lived in South Carolina during the 1980s, so they last saw each other almost three decades before this visit.

The women had decided among themselves that they were going to travel to Virginia to see mom for the last time. They had a few plans up their sleeves, and once they settled in for the visit, one of the women approached me to tell me they were intent on cooking breakfast for mom the next morning. They had booked hotel rooms, and they were going out to eat with their husbands that evening. They spent several hours with mom until they saw she was fading. 

I took the photo shown here and I obscured her friends' faces. One, because I don't know if they're still alive; and two, because I haven't received permission from them to show their images, even if I knew how to get in touch with them. I wanted to tell my mother she shouldn't wear green, as that outfit seemed to match her complexion that day. But, I wanted her to be happy, and she was beside herself. I think she knew, deep in her heart, that she had some loyal fans somewhere on this continent.

The next morning, the three woman arrived at 9 a.m. to cook for mom, and mom was shocked. She was still floating on the visit the previous day, and had no clue they were arriving again to cook an omelette for her, something she was craving (that was my tip to her friends the previous day).

I stood by to tell the women where to find certain items, and I think--but I'm not sure--that I set the table. I don't remember, either, if dad put the leaf in the table to extend it to seat more people. I was just busy watching mom and tending to her friends, so I'm glad I took that one photo to help jog my memory about my mother's reactions. I think I took another photo of her friends in that tiny kitchen, jostling for space, but I remember it being a dark photo, too dark to use for anything other than memories. I don't even remember if their husbands came with them or not.

I just remember that this event was a great memory for mom, and I think this visit was the best thing to happen to her since she was first diagnosed. My heart goes out to these women, still unknown to me, to thank them for what they did.

The DNR, Funeral Planning, and Time for Me

Today in 2014, I mentioned on Facebook that my mother's horrendous bed wedge arrived (that matched her bedroom walls), that mom's cardiologist wasn't happy with mom's edema, and that I had discovered the DNR (Do Not Resuscitate) and posted it on the side of the refrigerator. That was a handy place, as the kitchen was located just off the entranceway.

The responses I received from my friends to this post were both heartfelt and expansive. Some of my friends went into great detail on how they handled their own parent's DNR and then segued into how their parent sat down to plan their own funerals. My mother did write her obituary, but she was certain no one would come to her funeral or memorial service, so she vetoed that idea. Hospice had other plans, though, and we did get to enjoy a service months after she died. We lost her obituary, though. That's another story.

The cardiologist was a contentious issue, because hospice wasn't happy with the number of visits that he wanted my mother to add to her schedule. Hospice, at that time and place, was into providing palliative care to make the patient comfortable. The cardiologist was intent on keeping my mother alive, which was going to prove to be a losing battle.

Interestingly, both the cardiologist and hospice agreed that my mother should continue to see her nephrologist, the doctor who specialized in the diagnosis and treatment of kidney disease. I think hospice felt it would be good to keep tabs on that one kidney mom had to know more in advance about when her kidney might give up the ghost. I agreed. Cartainty in the face of uncertainty, for me, was vital at the time. That was a healthier compromise for us all.

Another friend wanted me to find a massage therapist for me, not for my mother. But, as I told her, anytime I left the house, I could count on my mother having an emergency situation. I was thankful for mobile phones, but I still didn't have much freedom.

The one joy I allowed myself to have in my trips back and forth between Virginia and home was to stop at the Blenko Glass Factory in Milton, Cabell County, West Virginia. I would pick up one piece, resulting in several dozen pieces that I eventually sold on eBay. The piece I purchased on my last trip to Virginia that ended with mom's death was a rare one. White frosted glass with dimples. I still have that piece.

I took the photo above during one pit stop at Blenko. It was a very colorful place, and I always enjoyed browsing all the interesting shapes and textures. I do miss those visits.

Some Days are Quiet

Caregiving is a roller coaster, with days that go up and down. On some days there is nothing to report, like today. That's when it's time to sit back and reflect rather than conjure up something out of thin air. I'm sure I'll be here tomorrow with news from the past.

The Unwanted Bed Wedge and Donations

Today in 2014 I wrote that my parents decided to delay the arrival of the hospital bed, because that decision seems so final. Mom chose, instead, to obtain a wedge for the bed she shared with dad so she could sleep with her chest elevated to help her breate better. What a mistake that decision turned out to be. That wedge was huge, she used it once, and it stayed with us until my father died. 

The wedge was blue to match the bedroom walls, removeable fabric-covered foam, about 27° angle, and it took up more than 1/2 of my parents' queen-sized bed. When mom used it, she said the bottom of her spine hurt. I knew what she meant, and that position wasn't the best for her, or for anyone for that matter. But, since hospice ordered it and my parents didn't pay for it, they kept it.

Since that wedge stayed past dad's demise, it was up to me to decide what to do with that durn thing. I donated it. I hope it found a good home.

Speaking of donations, plan now to decide what you want to pass on to your friends, family, children, etc. and which things need to be donated. I had to make those decitions alone for both parents, as my siblings live out west and weren't part of the day-to-day plans and outcomes regarding either parents' deaths. My parents didn't say a word about most of their items, and I didn't know to ask. I wish I did. My life would be so much easier.

Even now, many of my parents' belongings are sitting quietly down in my basement, waiting for me to decide what to do with them.